The answer to that is: Life. A life I thought not worth living. A life not wanting to continue. A life that only existed for 1 purpose: VENGENCE. To answer many questions: 1) Rachel, Debbie and Stephanie grew up into lovely young ladies. During this time, many thing happened to them, both good and bad, ending in bad and requiring me to rescue them again. But that is all behind them now. 2) I still do not know where Cathy is buried. Despite the work that I did to make sure her murderer paid the ultimate price of his life, many still consider what I believe in what had to be done as wrong. 3) Much of it is explained in the 1997 entries, but during these years, I would fall in love again with somebody else. During the 1990's, she found me as an emotional train wreck full of anger and hate, and many said that it was wrong for her to pursue a relationship with me. Especially because she was already married to somebody else. In the beginning, she did not even liked me, even worse, hated she to the extent of wanting to kill me on several occassions shortly after Cathy's funeral. I can not say who this person is, but I will say this: it is one who many know as and refer to as Katherine (Kathy), Cathy's twin. 4) Healthwise, I have deteriorated, though the treaments of the past were used to slow down the progression of the Axial Mylarsis, it is my injuries from Julia Richman that has put these treaments at a stalemate. According to theory, I got another 5 to 8 years left at the time if this writing. But as I spoke to Kathy about it, At what cost and at what quality? This has been the bane of many of our arguements, just like Cathy and I before. But that does not mean that I have ended my life at this point. I will continue to fight and continue to search for a cure, and one day- I will find it. 5) With Cathy's murderer put at the gates of hell, my demons have all but disappear. I still have some difficulty with the time period of Dec 20 - Jan 15, and around summer time at August 15th. I'm also having a difficult issue with people trying to erase Catherine from history's existance, and its been my war since then to make sure that she is not ever forgotten. She was a very important person in my life, and in many others. I do not know why so many people want kill her again with this other attempt.