December 24th, 3PM- Christmas Eve.

I wake up with a tremendous headache. Jaunita was already sitting at the end of the bed, watching TV as the children's cartoon specials had just started.

"Ugh...", was all I could say as I turned onto my side.

"Its about time you woke up.", Jaunita said as she turned towards me. She then laid down under the blankets with me and put an arm around me.

"What time is it?", I ask.

"Sometime after 3...", Jaunita started to answer.

"Oh god, I swear...", I say to myself.

"Bad headache...", she started to ask, or say, it was hard to tell which. Then she switches subjects on me, "Serves you right."

"What did I do this time?", I asked, wanting to hide under the pillows.

"Its you men in general and you to an extreme...", she started to explain, "you hold back on your emotions until you're about to burst and then something else bursts-like a blood vessel in your head."

"Dont do this, Jaunita... please dont.", I tell her, burying my head under one of the pillows.

"Alright, I get you some aspirin...", she started to say as she tried to get off the bed.

"Please dont...", I tell her from under the pillow.

"Why not?", she asks.

"Because, its past the point where medicine wont do a thing for it...", I tried to explain, withdrawing deeper into the pillow.

She pushes herself to be above me at arm's length, concerned about me and my headache. Many times in the past she has seen me in this condiction, and many times had she wished that she could do something to ease the pain. Unfortunately for me, there is nothing that can be done once the pain surpasses a certain point of either threshold or time. But this time she knows the reason behind it, or at least for the latest one.

"Fernando... tell me what you know about god?", she asks.

"You were in my head, you saw what happened.", I explained softly.

"No, not that. Tell me what you know. Answer the questions in my head, please.", she asks.

"It simple, as you should know because it is taught in bible school.", I say softly, grimacing from the pain of the headache as I turn about to face her. "Look- As it is taught- God made heaven and earth, and all the creatures and gave them life. Then he made man, and instead of giving him life- he gave him a soul, which gave him life. But souls are of the angels and demons, and when they heard of what god done. This whole Lucifer vs god thing happened, and hell was created. Now, why god gave man a soul? It's a test, a test called life. How he passes that test- determines where he is placed when that soul returns to gid's kingdom. Understand?"

"But that is just the basics...", Jaunita(Gloria) says.

"That's all there is.", I tell her, as I cover my eyes.

"Explain the angels part.", she asks.

"What angels part?", I ask.

"That part where some of us have these powers above all others, and that we are angels on earth.", she explains.

"Everyone is born with a soul- a life engery force that lives forever and is the every evergy that angels and demons are from. Now image if it were possible, to have their powers expressed through flesh and blood, then you have what we are. It is just a matter of using one's abilities for good or evil, which again is the test of life, and determines our placement in the kingdom of god.", I explain.

"But...", she started to say.

"No buts. You and I are tied psychically for a reason. If we are to save the world sometime in the future, I don't think there is anybody out there worthy of the task than you. But if you want to waste time and have sex with me to make me feel better...", I started to explain.

"No... not that.", Jaunita(Gloria) started to explain.

"Then what?", I ask.

"There is a heaven and there is a hell, and everyone must work to earn their place in them. What I'm asking is what about us? We who are given these powers to do good..?", Jaunita(Gloria) asks.

"There is no guarentees for anyone, not even us. Everything must be earned, whether good or bad. Anything else?", I say.

"About Cathy?", Jaunita(Gloria) asks.

"What about her?", I ask.

"She's dead, isn't she?", she asks.

"That is yet to be determined when she is found.", I tell her.

Jaunita(Gloria) leans over to me, and gives me a kiss on the cheek.

"What was that for?", I asked.

"That was for you. And if you need anything more, I can give it.", she answers.

"Lets not go there.", I say to her.

"I'm just saying.", she almost complains.

"I know in what you're offering me, and I greatly appriecate it greatly. But Jaunita(Gloria), for whatever reasons, it would be for the wrong reasons. Even more so if we get caught.", I tell her.

"Who would catch us doing what?", she asks.

"Let me put this in your head...", I started to tell her, "Cathy's missing. You in the same bed that she and I share as husband and wife. If this were common knowledge to everyone, they would think that one of us is responsible for her disappearence, and that we enjoying the fruits of that crime. You understand now?", I explain.

"So, because I'm in bed with you, while she is missing, people are going to think.... Oh my god...", Jaunita(Gloria) finally realizes what I had been trying to tell her all along. "Corin and a couple of other people knows that I'm already here..."

"I would not worry about Corin.", I tell her, "It's the others that may give problems."

"If we would have...", Jaunita(Gloria) started to say.

"Jaunita(Gloria), don't get me wrong in this. But I do not want to have sex or make love with you, nor would I care if the police or anyone else came in and saw the two of in bed. Its that I am not up to having sex with anyone right now and its also because I would like to believe that Cathy is out there, somewhere, alive, and to have sex with you would be cheating against her.", I explain to her.

"What about all those things just before, to show you that I care about you, and would do anything that you need. I do worry about you, you are my friend, if not moreso, you are my lover, my psychic partner, and if not my soulmate. I'm willing to give you anything you so desire, want or need.", she tells me.

"Then lets do nothing.", I tell her.

"And what about later on?", Jaunita asks.

"More of nothing.", I answered.

"But Fernando, you can not hold back on all that anger and tension. I can feel that you're about to burst inside...", Jaunita(Gloria) started to say.

"What do you want me to do, girl?", I ask her.

"What ever it takes to release some of that pressure.", she answers.

I just lay there in silence for a moment. Trying to relax to where my nerves are only working on the silvered part of their wiring, which would put Jaunita(Gloria) a couple of seconds behind me on reaction time. I act, and by the time she realizes it, it would be too late. I turn up on hers, holding her arms down, and managed to spread her legs open with mine, pressing my groin against her. She can feel my erect penis pushing up against her, and if it weren't for our underwear, would have forcibly entered her. By the time she realizes what has happened, she squeals in protest, knowing that she would have lost the fight.

Trying to keep in controll of myself, at start trembling slightly above her, "Is this what you want to happen?"

"Fernando- don't...", Jaunita(Gloria) almost pleads with me, "This is not you,... so stop... please..." She tries to fight back but is easily over powered by my strength.

"This is what you want, isn't it!", I tell her angrily, "You just want me to stick it in you, don't you..."

"No, Fernando, its not that at all...", she pleads with me, "please don't... dear god, no... don't let this happen..."

"God has nothing to do with what is happening now between us- understand that!", I tell her in my still angry tone.

"Then, Fernando, please don't, not like this...", Jaunita pleads with me some more.

"Give me a good reason why.", I tell her.

"This is not you, that's why...", she says almost to the verge of tears.

"Give me a better answer...", I almost demanded.

"Because I love you as much as you love me, and you would never hurt me because of what we got and share... please... don't, you're scaring me...", Jaunita(Gloria) says, starting to cry towards the end of her words.

I momentarily close my eyes and concentrate hard to hold back a lot of anger and tension, before relaxing my hold on her and then letting her go, kneeling in between her legs. She tries to hold back her tears as she slowly sat up 1/2 way, needing her arm to hold herself up. With her free arm, she reaches out and holds me, then gets her other arm around me and starts to cry. I put my arms around her as she does.

"You did not had to do that...", she saids in between her sobbing. She wanted to hit me, but just barely goes through the motions three or more times before resting her balled fist against my shoulder.

"I did, because that was what you were going to get if we allowed ourselves to go that far. Look Jaunita(Gloria), I care enough for you not to allow that to happen. I hope you understand.", I explained as I laid back down on the bed tryng to go back to sleep.

But sleep does not come. Instead Jaunita(Gloria) lays her head back on my chest and pulls the covers to under her chin, under the blanket, she puts her arm around me, as she did for most of the time we were here. In all this, she says to herself, "I do understand."

The TV continued on for another 1/2 hour of children's cartoons before it switches the programming, when Jaunita(Gloria) decided to ask about lunch or dinner.

"Do you want anything to eat?", Jaunita(Gloria) asks.

"Not really.", I said in a 1/2 sleepy tone.

"Would you want anything later on?", she asks.

"Don't take this the wrong way, Jaunita(Gloria),", I started to tell her.

"Yes?", she asks.

"I want to make love to you.", I tell her.

"You want to have sex with me, is that what you're telling me?", she asks.

"If it gets to that point. But, Jaun... I want everything else up to that point... the hugging, and holding, the kissing, and whispering in your ear how much you mean to me. All those things.", I explained.

"I see.", she said. "Its been an emotional rollercoaster these past few days with you..."

"I'm sorry.", I tell her.

"Don't be. If I were in your shoes, I would not know what to do either, and probably doing the same thing to me.", Jaunita(Gloria) explains.

"That's why I'm sorry.", I tell her. She leans over to me face and kisses me on the cheek.

After a brief moment of silence, she leans up against me one more time, "So, how should we start?"

"We have already started, since you first took your clothes off and came into this bed with me.", I tell her, "Its continueing, and how far it continues is the question.

"OK then...", she says, before she goes under the covers and moves about for a bit, and come back for air. "Fernando, I want you to do the same thing, just don't argue with me but just do.", she then adds.

"What are you talking about?", I ask.

She pulls out her arm from under the blanket and shows me her panties that she had just removed, "Take yours off..."

"Jaunita(Gloria)...", I call to her sternly.

"If we love each other, and we trust each other, and believe that nothing is going to happen between us, you'll do it.", Jaunita(Gloria) stated, "Its all or nothing."

"And if something does happen?", I ask.

"Then I hope you'll be gentle with me as much as possible.", she says.

"There's no argueing about this?", I ask.

"Maybe you'd prefer if I went down there and removed them for you?", she asks.

"Maybe I would.", I said jokingly.

But she took it seriously, saying, "Have it your way then...", diving under the covers and started to pull on my briefs. At first I grab on to them, but realize that they might rip, so I let them go. She takes them off with a minimal fight from me, before she resurfaces again with them in her hand. Then she takes her underwear and crumples it up with mine quite vigorously before putting them on the nightstand on the table next to the bed. "There!", she finally says.

"What was that for?", I ask.

"Haven't you ever heard that of if male and female underwear got mixed together, that their owners would have sex?", Jaunita(Gloria) asks.

"I've heard of a lot of strange things, but I never heard of that one.", I started to say, adding, "Wait a minute! You trying to start something?"

"If its true about what they say, then we're doomed...", Jaunita(Gloria) says with a smile.

"If its true, it does not mean that its going to happen right away...", I interupt her.

"You don't want it to happen right away?", she playfully mocks me.

I reach out to her and bring her close to me. Holding her, I give her a kiss on her forehead. "I'm about to give up and let things happen as they may. Look, if we end up having sex, its because we both care enough of each other to give it, not because you are trying to release the tension and pressures within me or keep me from going after someone who royally deserves his ass to be kicked into hell. I want it out of need expressing our love to each other- not anyone else. Its just the two of us in this bed...", I tell her.

"So, where you want me to lay down and open my legs...", Jaunita(Gloria) jokingly says.

"Jaunita(Gloria)... that's not funny.", I tell her,

"I was only teasing.", she says, "Look, I know what you want and need, for I need those things too. Since you're so important to me, it does not matter how or where it happen, all that does is that it does or not. OK?"

"OK.", I reply to her. But in protest, I complained, "I don't expect anything to happen, so you better not try to push it, for I do not want to be put in a position where I could hurt you because we got carried away or the pressures of my tension and anger got the better of me and its taken out on you."

Jaunita(Gloria) gets closer to me, as she was before, resting her head on my chest and her arm around me. "I understand.", she saids as she turns to face me. Then she climbs back up onto me, straddling me as she did before, looking down at me as she holds herself up from my shoulders with her arms. She stares at me wide-eyed as she realizes what was about to happen if we were not careful, as my erect penis was up against her down there, about to enter into her.

"Jaunita(Gloria), whatever yo do, just don't push down.", I tell her with some concern.

"I know...", she says before she slowly reaches in between her legs to pull me out of a too close situation. Together we let out a sigh of relief. For a moment she looks at me and smiles, "That was close..."

"Too close...", I said.

"I don't mind though, for you anyways.", she said.

"Why not?", I ask.

"Well, something could have just happened then, and it didn't. It didn't because you and I trust each other to do the right thing for the other.", she explains. She then slowly lowers herself closer to me and gives me a passonate kiss on the lips. I do not resist and return what she gives, and soon we are entangled within ourselves in passion.

No sooner than we started, we stop. Or so it seemed, for over 40 minutes had past since we started and somehow we managed to switch places with me on top of her, and her legs wrapped around me.

"Jaunita, we have to stop.", I look at her as I held myself above her with my arms extended above her shoulders, panting for her.

She reaches up to me, gently wiping the sweat off my face, but still holding on to me with her other arm. "We had not done that in a long time...", she silently tells me.

"I know.", I tell her, "And you know why we must stop."

"I know.", she says as she slowly lets go of me.

I slowly kneel up, stretching out my back before I do. Jaunita(Gloria) inches herself a bit to sit up before we stare at each other for a while, though not realizing how thing were lining up at our groins. She take a glance down my body until she can see how close we are to achieving penetration, she slowly reaches down there and takes my penis into her hand, away from any possible accidents from occurring.

She smiles at momentarily as she holds me in her hand, "You know this thing can be dangerous in the wrong hands."

"You mean like yours?", I ask her.

"No silly!", she exclaims back as she stares into my eyes, then looks down at my penis. "I wonder what would your wife say if she caught us like this right now?", she says to herself.

"That's why I think we should stop.", I tell her as I reach to her hand holding me and gently take her off me. I then roll to the side of her and sit down. She turns to face me, putting her hand on the bed between my knees and leans over to get closer.

"Now why you gone done that for?", she asks as she started to tremble.

"Did what?", I ask.

She reaches over and grabs the blankets from the balled mass at the end of the bed, and throws them over her, hogging as much as warmth as she can. Some of the blankets landed on me, but only covering me from the waist down. I grabbed onto whatts left and crawled under, laying on my side facing her. She was already laying on her side facing me, but allowed me to get closer by putting her leg around me.

"Thank you.", I tell her.

"What for?", she asks.

"Giving me something I needed.", I tell her.

"Are we finished then?", she asks.

"No, not until the last days we remains as more than just friends.", I say to her.

"Thought so.", she said before leaning over to me with a tight hug and a kiss to the lips.

For a while, we started round two of passonate making out with each other, but not as energetic as before but more relaxed and subdued. As the closk approached 5pm, it started to get dark as the sun went down. Somewhere int his time, Jaunita(Gloria) reaches for the remote control and turns off the TV. Times passes as we continued in our embrace, fighting hard to keep within the limits of our relationship and not pushing it into unchartered territories as much as we wanted too.

As the clock reaches 6o'clock we stop for a moment. Both of us tired but wanting more. Sweaty from exhaustion, and breathing heavy for much needed air, we both look at each other in the dark. Most of our contact, being with hand at face or hair, gently carrassing each others features.

"You hungry?", she asks.

"Just tired.", I answered.

"I can whip up a little dinner for us from what we have last night.", Jaunita(Gloria) quietly stated.

"Its OK, if you like.", I tell her.

Reaching for the remote, she says, "OK love, I'll take care of it, just lay there and cover your eyes, for I know this will hurt.", as she turns on the TV to light up the room with. With the TV dimly lighting up the room, she slowly gets out of bed, and gets the robe off the floor as it was heated by the space heater. She wraps herself in its heated warmth before putting on the heated slippers and heads into the kitchen.

While she spends time on preparing a small meal for us, I slowly go to sleep.


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